Wednesday


Your first apartment! sounds so cool right? lol it's not all glitz and glamour as it seems. Yes, it is nice to move out of your parents house...having your own space, doing what you want to do, making your own rules, and having anyone over at any time of the day/night. Sounds amazing when you talk about it. I got my first apartment in 2015 and goodness it was nothing but an apartment of lessons. My first apartment was an apartment of LESSONS. For the good and the bad. I learned a lot being on my own for the first time. It's great not having someone on your back about everything and being able to walk around the house naked lol but there is so much responsibility that comes with it. Managing bills, keeping food in the house, staying aware of your surroundings, and also dealing with annoying neighbors and maintenance. But i think i moved out just in time; meaning 20 going on 21. I think 21 is the age where it's time to seriously grow up and take responsibility. If i would've still been living at home at the age of 21, i feel like i would still be a little immature. Yes, i have had some bad times being on my own. But, i have learned to take care of myself by myself. NO help from parents. I didn't want the help. I wanted to feel like a woman, an adult. Also, i spent so much time by myself in my apartment. With that being said, it helped me learn how to discipline myself and my emotions. And even still I am learning that more and more each day. I've enjoyed every second that I've spent by myself. I made some dumb decisions when it came to finances. But, I've learned from that. 2015 was a year of life lessons for me forsure. Even still in 2016, i am still learning so much. My second apartment will be an even better experience. I'll be taking everything I've learned from my first apartment and applying it to my second. I didn't even really decorate my first apartment. It was so boring, so plain lol. After a year of being alone, I've finally figured out how i want to enjoy my time alone and what kind of space i want to create for myself. I cannot wait to decorate my second apartment. I did do a good job of keeping my home my happy place. Yes, i did have some bad nights. Crying myself to sleep sometimes because some things became too much at once. But all in all, i dealt with every last thing life threw at me lol I'd say i handled everything like an adult should. At some point, i had to work a second job doing deliveries downtown that was not safe for me at all. Delivering late at night to neighborhoods i never even heard of. But i did it because i knew i had things to take care of. I just had to pray every night that god was watching over me and kept me safe. I did not just cry and run back home to grandpa. I appreciate everything i had to go through because i just look at it as a learning experience. I will be going into my next apartment more mature, stable finances, and confident. A home is a peace of mind. After work, school, the gym etc....You get to go back home to your comfort zone. I leave all problems at the door. I don't bring those problems into my home. I go home to relax, and enjoy my time alone. It will feel so weird moving out this apartment, but will also feel so damn good. 


It's like you're leaving so much behind yet taking so much with you. AND THAT IS WHAT IS AMAZING ABOUT YOUR FIRST APARTMENT!