Thursday

i don't ever think i am better than anybody, but i do know what i deserve and who deserves my time! 

Tuesday

LET'S TALK BS!

Have you ever had to dumb yourself down for someone? Playing the fool, just too see how they play the game. Whole time in the back of your mind you know what's right and what's wrong. Having to play like you weak but you know in your right mind you're strong and shit really don't phase you lol. I can't. like i literally cannot. Long story short, i played the fool for a few weeks with someone. Literally acted like i had no back bone. I was just waiting too see how this dude was gone react to certain things. It got to a point where i just had to laugh at him and myself. lol the fact that this dude would really think i'm that weak minded. like i really absolutely needed him! 

Put it like this, when someone knows they want you, they don't put nothing or nobody else before you! Your needs become their needs! Your wants become their desire to fulfill. You shouldn't have to tell anyone that they need to show you true commitment. You shouldn't have to tell them that they need to respect you and love you the right way. If i have to tell a guy that, and right then and there and he don't man up and drop all the bullshit, then nigga i don't WANT OR NEED YOU PERIOD!

Most of the shit is common sense. and if you are not sure how to act in relationship, then don't go seeking one! It's so funny when i dude want a female to stay to herself and not fuck with anyone while he out being a HOE! Boy bye. You ain't putting no ring on my finger! Hell, you can't even stay committed!!


OH AND BY THE WAY, IT'S 2017! NO I WILL NOT COME GET YOU AND JUST CHILL!!! NO, I DO NOT WANT TO JUST CHILL AND THEN STAY THE NIGHT! NO, MY APARTMENT IS NOT A HOTEL! NO, YOU ARE NOT MY BOYFRIEND NOR ARE WE SERIOUS, SO NO I DO NOT HAVE TO COOK FOR YOU! NO, DON'T ASK ME FOR ANYTHING I CAN'T ASK YOU FOR!!! 

GROW UP!!!!!!!!

Why do i have to keep lowering my standards for these no nothing ass niggas! If i got my own money, why can't i want a man who got his own money?? If i got a car, why can't i want a man who has to have a car??? If i got my own place, why can't i want a man who got his own place??

i can only play the fool for so long baby! i am not weak minded! i will not bow down to you. i will not treat you like a king and you don't treat me like a queen. fuck outta here! Only a insecure ass female will keep taking back the same nigga who keeps doing her wrong! 

LORD, you know the man i need/the man i want! 

and Sis, if you CLEARLY FOUND OUT HE WAS FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE ON THE SIDE, then what the hell are you crying for??? God, just sent you a sign babygirl. God just sent you a blessing! He is showing you that this is NOT THE GUY HE PICKED OUT FOR YOU! We gotta stop getting so damn hurt over these niggas who ain't worth a damn penny! 

Niggas now n days just want a female that's WEAK! They want a female who ain't gone say nothing or go crazy if she find out he out here fucking around on her. Stay away from those type of niggas sis! if he always calling you crazy because you ALWAYS calling him out on his shit, stay away from him! As i said, only insecure females deal with that bullshit! they don't love themselves enough to walk away. and if my nigga left me for you...bitch have him! i don't have time for a back and fourth, wishy washy ass nigga! 

That's all, thanks for reading! i just had to vent.

Friday

Reggae music is literally like my new thing. im so in love. They're like the ancestors of Erykah Badu.